Idle Ramblings of a Slightly Mad Man

I’ve seen my own death.  I know when and how I am going to die.

 I had a dream one night and it was so clear and so vivid.  It was so real.  It was not like most dreams that are kinda fuzzy and odd.  This was was very specific.

It was several years ago and I was very sober when I went to sleep.  In fact, I can clearly recall that it was weeks since I had alcohol or drugs.  I could explain this away if I smoked some pot or ate some ’shrooms or finished a bottle of Jack but this was not the case.  I was stone cold sober.  I awoke with the realization of what it was, a premonition of my own death. 

I die in a tragic way.  I don’t do anything silly or stupid to cause it but I don’t die pretty.  I am thankful that there is no one with me at the time it occurs.  I die alone.  Some might say that is sad to die alone but I find it rather comforting to know that no one has to watch me slowly slip away into the grasp of the reaper. 

I see the how, the why and the where.  I know it occurs at night, late night, around 2:33 AM, that is what the clock in my dream said, and it is a cold winter night.  As I said, very real, very vivid and very detailed. 

Could this be happening soon?  It is possible that it would be this winter, maybe next winter, what year I am unsure of.  I am not scared to die.  I don’t live in fear.  I am curious to see what happens after this life, if anything.

If, one day, you come to this silly little blog of mine and see that I have not posted in some time and it is still winter, Google “one car accident on route 476 north just past Route 3 exit”.  Chances are that is where you will find me.